I’ve got this passion It’s something I can’t describe It’s so electric It’s like I’ve just come alive

I feel this freedom Now that my past is erased I feel the healing I’ve found the meaning of grace (I found grace)

If only you come see me yesterday Who I used to be before the change You’d see a broken heart You’d see the battle scars

Funny how words can’t explain How good it feels to finally break the chains I’m not what I have done I’m what I’ve overcome

I know I’ll stumble I know I’ll still face defeat These second chances will define me

So I’m moving forward I’m standing on my two feet I’ve got momentum I’ve got someone saving me (got someone saving me)

If only you could see me yesterday Who I used to be before the change You’d see a broken heart You’d see the battle scars

Funny how words can’t explain How good it finally feels to break the chains I’m not what I have done I’m what I’ve overcome

I make mistakes and I might fall But I won’t break I’ve got someone saving me

If only you could see me yesterday Who I used to be before the change You’d see a broken heart You’d see the battle scars

Funny how words can’t explain How good it feels to finally break the chains I’m not what I have done I’m what I’ve overcome I’m what I’ve overcome I’m what I’ve overcome

Man, I never thought change would bring such peace and joy to my soul. Having been a person that naturally changed things to run away, it is an awing moment to realize that each change that I now make in my life, is motivated by running to something. I am in a season of awakening, rubbing my overly slept eyes, and allowing my vision to fully focus on the world around me. No longer lost in a sea of shadowy faces, no longer living a purposeless life, no longer living behind the walls built long ago to keep others out.

My heart is fully alive, and filled with passion and fire. My zest for life has been restored by simply picking up my bible. I had always heard that God’s word was alive. But never have I experienced my bible, the way I have the last 6 months. I began with a simple prayer, “God make your word more real to me than my own thoughts. Let your word come alive and jump right off the pages and into my heart. Let me be drenched.” I pray that same prayer each time I pick up His word. I began to read the Bible as if it were a personal love letter from God, written purposely for me. I have to tell you…when you begin to read it out of your desire to know His love, and to know how to love Him in return…your world will begin to change. When I feel lost, or lonely I just pick it up, and He is so faithful to meet me there with words of encouragement.

In His word I can see my Father, I can see His nature, I can see who He is and who I am to Him. You can’t know the depth, height, width, and length of God’s love for you, and not go on a hugging frenzy. Its like a scene from “The sound of music” ha ha ha. When you have that moment of realization it is as if warm sunshine has illuminated your mind, body, and soul. It is in that moment you wake up and are fully alert and alive. What “was” and “has been”, the “how and “why”, those are no longer important. You can now contently live in the “am” and “is”. The ability to be still and know that He is God, and He truly is in control. To me that is true power and freedom. To know that God is capable of exceedingly great and mighty things, and to expect that He is always working on my behalf for my good, man, that’s empowering!

…those who seek the Lord lack no good thing-psalm 34:10

all things work together for the good of those who love the lord.” romans 8:28

Hey :), First of all, Thank you for reading my blog. It really means so much to me, and to hear from you as well.

Faith is hard because it requires us to step out of our comfort zones into the unfamiliar. I do believe for some people faith takes time. We are all different in our ability to have faith. Some are able to just believe and faith is instant. And then there are others that have had a history of being let down, and take that baggage into their relationship with God. For someone like myself who experienced a lot of abandonment and disappointment growing up, can find it hard to trust even God. But God is so beautiful in the way He loves us. He knows and understands what it is like to be us.

It felt so risky for me to follow God. I lived in a state of “what if”…What if I take this risk and He doesn’t come through. But there finally came a point in my life where I knew that the only way to take my relationship with Him to the next level was to take that leap. God knows how hard this is for us, so He gives us “baby steps”, small situations to have faith in him…to build up that faith muscle. So when the big issues come along, we have no hesitation running to Him. There are other times when we learn to have faith…the make or break times…we come to the end of the road…we can either jump to the other side or fall off. It is in the jump that God has the full ability to show us what He is made of and what we are made of. I have learned that He will never ask us to give up something, that He wont bring something a million times better in its place. He is sooo faithful, despite the size of our faith. I guess that’s why Jesus said if we “have even the faith of a mustard seed” we can do the unthinkable. We serve an Extraordinary God, who is capable of exceedingly great and miraculous things. So yes…sometimes the beginning of faith is hard because our human nature is to be in control and to have it all figured out. But I have found there is a great freedom in knowing that my Heavenly Father’s got it all under control…He’s got my back ;). I am so very glad to hear from you, and hope to again soon. Thank you again for reading my blog. :)

“The God who made the world and everything in it is the Lord of heaven and earth and does not live in temples built by hands. And He is not served by human hands, as if he needed anything, because He Himself gives all men life and breath and everything else. From one man he made every nation of men, that they should inhabit the whole earth; and he determined the times set for them and the exact places where they should live. God did this so that men would seek him and perhaps reach out for him, though he is not far from each one of us. ‘For in him we live and move and have our being.’ As some of your own poets have said, ‘We are His offspring’.” -Acts 17:24-28!

God will plant the seed in your heart, it is your decision to allow truth’s light in to let it grow…or other people’s priorities and deception shadow it. You know in your heart what you need to do. Faith is hard. And it takes patience and time. But in the end, man, the victory is so sweet.

This came to mind when I was talking with a friend. Just thought I’d share it.

♥ Phenomenal intro to an extraordinary song…you can feel the anointing, and holy spirit speak into your heart as she reads this verse.

“Your grace is enough. More than I need. And your word I will believe. I wait for You. Draw near again. Your spirit makes me new. And I will fall at your feet, I will fall at your feet. And I will worship you here…”. -Hillsongs

I will worship you here. I worship you here, in the struggle, in the desert, in the fire, in lions den. Because God you are mighty and quick to save. You promise that never will you leave or forsake me. You work all things together for my good. Your thoughts are higher than my thoughts and ways higher than my ways. And as with Moses, The three, and Daniel. You will lead me to the promise land. You will stand with me in the fire, and I will walk out not singed or scorched. You will bind the mouths of the lions and I will not be harmed.

God no matter what comes at me in this life, You are greater Father. “I lift my eyes to the hills. Where does my help come from? My help comes from the Lord, the Maker of heaven and earth. He will not let your foot slip. He who watches over you will not slumber. Indeed, he who watches over Israel will not slumber or sleep. The Lord watches over you. The Lord is your shade at your right hand; the sun will not harm you by day, nor the moon by night. The Lord will watch over your coming and going both now and forevermore.”-psalm 121

Life throws curve balls at us. And sometimes it seems that when we draw near to God that life should become this beautiful walk in the park, the sun should always be shining, and a soft breeze blowing. But that is not the case because as in any great epic tale we have an adversary, an evil villain that wants nothing more than to bring us to our ruin. “Be alert, your enemy the devil prowls around like a roaring lion looking for someone to devour”-1 peter 5:8. Life is filled with ever coming obstacles. Jesus said, “I did not come to bring peace, but a sword” -matt 10:34. And there is beauty too in that. There is a passion in that. Because even though there isn’t always a peaceful walk, he has equipped and given us something that we can run head on, into life, with a bravery and strength. We run gallantly ahead with sword in hand. We become heroes in ourselves. When I think of this scene, brave heart comes to mind. He ignites passion, strength, and courage in our hearts. He trades our comfort for a sword. When we know him we no longer crouch in our comfortable hiding, waiting out the battle, waiting out the storm. When we know Him we are strengthened as warriors, we ride out into the storm, on the sea of life. We become courageous and conquerors. Yes there will be the calm times in life where we can bask in Him, and His peace, but there will be far more days when we need to pick up our swords, and fight for the life that Jesus died to give us. We have authority, we serve a victorious God. So remember that no matter the battle, Our God has won the ultimate war.

God says “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness”. Too often we think that we need to be strong and handle everything on our own. But the truth is we need to humble ourselves and admit that God is mighty, strong, and able…He is willing. Psalm 147:11 says, “The Lord delights in those who have reverence for Him. Who put their hope in Him. He delights and takes joy in being able to meet our needs, He delights in helping us in what we see as impossible situations. That is why we too can say, as Paul did, “For Christ’s sake, I delight in weaknesses, in insults, in hardships, in persecutions, in difficulties. For when I am weak, then I am strong.”

God does not cast hardships upon us. We live in a fallen world, that has free will. Bad things will happen. But God does promise us that if we cling to Him and stay in His shadow, that He will bring us through all things. It may not look like it at the time, but He is fighting ever so fiercely on our behalf. We should not question if He hears us, based upon if we can se results of our prayer. Even in Daniel, he did not see immediate results, but in Daniel 10:10 we see that God was working on his behalf even as the words of prayer were leaving his lips. An angel appeared to Daniel and said, “Do not be afraid Daniel. Since the first day that you set your mind to gain understanding and to humble yourself before God, your words were heard, and I have come in response to them. But the prince of the Persian kingdom (evil spirit) resisted me twenty-one days.” Even though Daniel did not see immediate results he continued to pray and fast. Our prayers may be hindered by unseen obstacles. Prayer may be challenged by evil forces, so pray fervently, earnestly, and continually. And expect God to answer at the right time.

If this is the case for Daniel, and God heard him when He prayed with a humble heart, then we know God hears us too. “For the Lord your God is God of gods and Lord of lords, the Great God, mighty and awesome, who shows no partiality.” -Deut 10:17 & “For God does not show favoritism.” -Romans 2:11. He is not a respector of men, but loves us all equally. What He has done for one in the Bible, He will do for us all. We must reflect on the attitude, and actions of those in the Bible that had great opposition, and came out with a mighty victory. And we must always remember…that God is able, He is mindful of us, and He is more than willing to come to our aid. We must know His promises, and learn His word, for it is our sword in this battle of life.

“Great peace have they that love the law, and nothing can make them stumble.” -Psalm 119:165

“Submit to God and be at peace with him; in this way prosperity will come to you. Accept instruction from His mouth and lay up His words in your heart. …Surely then you will find delight in the Almighty and will lift up your face to God. You will pray to Him, and He will hear you…” Job 22:21,22,26,27

“Because he loves me” says the Lord, “I will rescue him; I will protect him, for he acknowledges my name. He will call upon me, and I will answer him; I will be with him in trouble, I will deliver him and honor him. With long life I will satisfy him and show him my salvation.” -Psalm 91:14-16

This is a journal entry from a month ago today. I have been in a season of stretching and pressing in. I know that God is fine tuning me. On this particular night, I needed God to give me encouragement. As I was reading my Bible I came upon this verse. I just loved it because I felt it expressed where I was, at the moment. So I made it my prayer for the evening…

“Let the morning bring me word of your unfailing love, for I have put my trust in you. Show me the way I should go for to you I lift up my soul. Rescue me from my enemy, O Lord, for I hide myself in You. Teach me to do your will for you are my God; may your Spirit lead me to level ground. For your name sake, O Lord, preserve my life; in Your righteousness, bring me out of trouble. In Your unfailing love, silence my enemies; destroy my foes, for I am Your servant.” - Psalm 143:8-12

At times when we walk with God, the enemy is going to come against us and try to push us backward. He will throw ideas, thoughts, and reminders of our past at us, making us question where we stand in God’s plan and calling. But in those times we have to stand strong and firm, and PRESS back and press in to God. With resistance we gain strength! This particular night I was feeling the pressure of my enemy. But God was faithful in helping me find scripture that helped me to relate to His word. I prayed this and in the morning I picked up my Bible again. I prayed that God would speak to me, and give me a word of strength and assurance. The very first verse I came upon was this…

“Do not be afraid; you will not suffer shame. Do not fear disgrace; you will not be humiliated. you will forget the shame of your youth. …’with deep compassion I will bring you back…with everlasting kindness I will have compassion on you,’ says the Lord your redeemer. …In righteousness you will be established. Tyranny will be far from you; you will have nothing to fear. Terror will be far removed; it will not come near you. If anyone attacks you it will not be my doing; whoever attacks you will surrender to you. No weapon formed against you will prevail, and you will refute every tongue that accuses you.’This is the heritage of the servant of the Lord and this is their vindication from Me.’ [says the Lord]”. -Isaiah 5:4-17

God is so faithful in answering us, and communicating love and comfort. I was just so thankful and wanted to share. God Bless!

hey chicky. I’m going to send you a message via fb. ♥ you